Learning curve

Feels like it has been such a long week. Scratch that, I think its been a long year.

I had a little rant about P&C crap the other day, and for anyone who may be reading - that problem has been dealt with. There is only so long you can allow someone to talk down to you before you snap. The person filling the role of President was doing my fucking head in, with her lack of morals, condescending attitude and general bad conduct. I think in accepting, let alone begging for, a role on a public community committee, you are making yourself accountable for your actions. And I dont think that woman had ever been made accountable for her actions. I will admit, I felt pressure from every corner on this one, other people and members wanted to know why she was not fulfilling her duties, but in all honesty, the majority of the stress in that situation was bought on by myself. This person had allowed me to believe that they knew what they were doing and had done some great things in the years before. So I backed her, and now I feel like a dickhead.

I always thought i was a pretty good judge of character. Always took people at face value and knew that everyone, no matter what their past or their crime, deserved a second chance. I think this is because I am very much aware that I have not always made the best decisions myself. There are lots of things in my past that I am not proud of. And especially since I have become a mother, I have tried to change my behaviour in the hope that I can be a better person. I have allowed people, for far too long, to manipulate me, and mistreat me, under the mad ideology that they were my friend/family. If I had a dollar for every time I had said 'yeh but maybe they dont realise that it comes across that way' I would be a millionaire. Either way, this person made me realise that I am tougher than that.

By wednesday last week I had enough and confronted the person. I told her that she is rude and condescending, among other things, and I can honestly say that I handled myself in a manner of which I can be proud. I didnt buy into the gossipy bullshit that had been said, I didnt over dramatise the situation, I just told her how I felt without throwing any other person under the bus. I told her that I was sorry that I had backed her and supported her, and that if she couldnt fulfil the role properly then she should step down and give someone else the chance.

She has since resigned from her position on the P&C and roles have changed. We have a new president and Vice President and I really believe that as a group we can do great things for the school. We are planning and plotting already and I cant wait to get stuck in and start raising some money for this school.

I learnt from this experience though. I learnt that no matter what people think of me, or how I may have behaved in the past, I can handle myself with decorum and class, at least sometimes.