Because I have no balls...

Dear T,

I am doing this here because I need to get this off my chest, but I just dont have any nice way to put what I have to say, nor would I ever want to hurt you, and I know that the things I am about to say would hurt. I have tried in the past, a couple of times now, but I am starting to think we speak different sorts of english.

You are an 'I' person. Everything revolves around you. Or so you would like to think. You are cheap and nasty. You flirt with other people's husbands and you seem to have an unrealistically high opinion of yourself. You never say sorry, never apologise, even when you are in the wrong. You are disloyal. You are rude and have incredibly poor etiquette, both online and in real life social situations. You have a chip on your shoulder. Your sense of entitlement astounds me. You seem to be completely oblivious that you irritate most of the people you come in contact with (at least the people we know mutually). You take no responsibilty for how your actions may affect other people, and you seem to believe that if you say or do something that upsets someone else - that is their problem. You are condescending. You embarass your children and dont hestitate to call them out on behaviour that you exhibit yourself. You just dont seem to get the message that I am not your friend, I tolerate you because your kids and mine go to the same school, therefore I will have to see you approximately 212 days of this year.

Sometimes I wish I could be an 'I' person. Then I come in contact with you again, and realise that you make me tense and anxious. And I dont like to think that I could make someone feel like that.

Ahh Natalie Portman... disappointed!

Well this weekend I watched Natalie Portman in her latest award winning role, and seriously, I gotta tell ya - she was fantastic but the movie was CRAP! Complete and utter bullshit. Okay I get that the movie delves into the big taboo that is mental illness, exploring a topic that many people just cant bring themselves to discuss, but shit, really people - I am not dumb and at the end of this one, I exhaled and let out a big loud WTF. So frikin confused! The whole movie was a mess of her playing the quiet doe-eyed dancer girl who would do anything to be perfect, and her 'pleasuring herself' or hallucinating about lesbian encounters.

If you went and asked any male on the street "Have you seen 'Black Swan' with that Natalie Portman sheila", the response would be "Yeh my mrs made me watch it. Did you see that bit where the girl went down on her... phwaor!"

Definitely something to be proud of Nat. Cant wait to see you you redeem yourself for that one on SNL. Will probably be better than the movie was!

Do you censor yourself??

I was just thinking 'I should blog about such n such' but reconsidered because a) I know who is reading this b) I know what the people reading this think about this and c) what is the point in writing about such n such if they already know what I think, and I already know what I think.

Then I thought about how often I rephrase what I say, or simply choose not to say, just because it may bother someone else.

Ah blah blah blah blah.......................